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The Void That Never Leaves Me

When I was encouraged to exercise my freedom to handle my healthcare at 16, I was not presented with a choice and came out horrified that I could have allowed anyone to convince me to murder my baby or tell me I had no right to be a mother. I attempted suicide 6 months after because of this crushing regret, which doesn’t look much like healthcare to me and the last thing on earth I have felt since this abortion, 2 decades ago now, is freedom. No one warns you about this horror, the crushing regret, how it lasts a lifetime, or how it eats you alive inside and the voices that could are nowhere to be found in the conversation, including, if not especially in, academia, and even art.

While artistically speaking the truth about my experience with abortion and the crushing regret I have had to live with, I would like to challenge the ideological blinders of some feminist ideals exposing how they have been at the forefront of gaslighting me, pushing me into feelings of unworthiness in motherhood OR even having a right to speak the truth of my regret, thereby hiding women from all the consequences they could face with the glorified freedom, healthcare, choice procedure. Making women feel unworthy for not feeling liberated or leaving them misinformed about the crushing regret they could face is neither pro-woman nor pro-choice. I believe this gaslighting and lack of empathetic space on the behalf of believers in abortion is the reason we hear so few women like me. They are afraid to speak, not just for the stoning that comes from the religious, hatefully judgmental, shaming so called pro-life side of society, but because of the denial of slaughter, silencing degradation, and gaslighting that comes from the so called pro-choice feminist side of society, with their shut up, you’re going to make abortion look bad attitude.

Once my personal goals have been reached, having set an artistically diverse example, I would like to continue my education with a Masters in Art, Music, & Narrative Therapy so I can start a nonprofit for other women to express the pain, crushing regret or remorse, and loss from abortion through art, music, and narrative expressions, so other silenced women like me can do the same to heal both their unborn souls as well as their own, letting the world know the truth behind this glorified yet horrifying procedure. Because we can never come to a world of humanity or peace when we so carelessly dehumanize and throw away our own children, then silence the women who have suffered this. I am going to dismantle this procedure and the ideologies that support it with no need to touch legality, just the sharing of truth.

That non-profit will be: Healing the Unborn Soul: Boldly Unveiling the untold stories of abortion's aftermath, dismantling taboos & misinformed perceptions, while fostering healing through courageous expression.

So far, I am still on the personal healing part of this journey and have collected several works of art: visual, poetic, and creative writing, to share my personal story and pain while completing an A.F.A in visual art. These can be found at idoLucidStreams.com The next step is an album & memoir as I complete my B.F.A. degree in Music & Creative writing which is in progress now. I am still finding my voice, but I get a little louder every day. And I am starting this blog to help interview other women doing the same. Join the battle at HealingTheUnbornSoul.com 

If you want to be interviewed reach out to me at:

healingtheunbornsoul@gmail.com